Bored D:

I'm pretty bored, although I am planning on going to bed soon I want something interesting to wake up to. So I want everyone to ask me some questions (just post on the journal that linked you here if you want). I will try to answer them all. Please refrain from sexual questions and anything that may be too personal. Otherwise ask away!

Monday? Like it or hate it?

Hey guys, so it's Monday again, some of you are saying YAY and some of you are cursing at this day. When I was in school I used to hate Mondays because it meant going back to school for the week. Now that I am out of school, and out of employment, I could really care less if it was Monday or not! So this leads me to ask, do you like Mondays? Or do you hate them? If you hate them, why? And if you like them, why?

Thanks ^^

So tired...

Today was one of my bad days. Some days I can get up and do things and have no problems, well not today. I went ALL day without having my nausea meds which also help with anxiety and helps me stay calm. I finally got a pill at almost 6pm. Almost 24 hours since my last one. I started crashing. I couldn't walk without my legs feeling like jello and my whole body felt like it was quivering. I started getting panicy and just wanted to go home but couldn't. I really wish I could just feel good again, I am so tired of feeling tired!
I hope tomorrow is better, I'm ready for a "good" day again.

One good thing, I did get to go see my friend Steve before my body decided to say f-u. He has been really lonely since his wreck that rendered him nearly immobile (he couldn't walk for a awhile but has since had surgery to fix his leg and can now walk with crutches). So I feel good about that :)

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As I sit here watching the same Spongebob DVD for the 3rd time today already I wonder, where is my life going? I don't have a job, I don't go to school, all I do all day every day is sit here on the couch and fiddle around on the computer, most of the time not even really doing anything but refreshing FA. I hate the way my life is right now, I barely leave the house due to my anxiety and panic attacks. I leave the house maybe once a day during the week to pick up my mate from work and that is it. I come back to my mom's house and sit here. Yes, I said my mom's house. Even though I have my own place it is in such a mess that I can't be there. I start feeling sick the moment that I walk in there. Over the past few months, almost a year actually I have been getting weaker and weaker. I lose energy faster and I get tired easily. It seems that the moment I wake up I am already tired again and just getting myself sat up and uncovered makes me tired to the point that my muscles are already aching. Even just sitting here typing my fingers are starting to shake and burn.
This is why I am going to have myself tested for Fibromyalgia. I have made countless trips to the ER and doctor to try and figure out what is wrong and they all tell me that nothing is wrong other than my anxiety and depression. As much as I don't want it to come back positive I think I would be a little relieved to finally have a name for what is wrong with me. Even though there is no cure the symptoms can be treated to make it a little more bearable.
So what is the point of this blog? It's mainly just an outlet right now because I feel like I can't talk to anyone right now. Thanks to anyone who has read this, it really means a lot to me.

What do you like/not like about my art?

I would like to know what you all like or dislike about my art. I am currently in an art block and I am very unhappy with my art at this point in time. So I ask all of you, what would you like to see me improve on, what shouldn't I change? Please be honest, but don't be rude.

Thanks!

Rain!

It's finally raining! We have been without rain for almost a month and it's finally downpouring. Hopefully this will knock down the temperatures and not just make it more humid and bleh D:

WOW it's really coming down now! Weeee!

July 23 2011

Finally got my chainmaille rings in the mail a couple days ago so when I have time and am not sick I'll be finishing up my 2 commissions :) Which reminds me, I have 3 slots open for chainmaille!

I really hope I get to feeling better, and soon. Being nauseous all the time can be really annoying. It's getting to the point where even my nausea meds aren't working as well. All they do is put me to sleep D:

Trying something new

This is my first blog ever, I have never done anything like this before so bear with me here! What will I be posting here? Well it could vary from craft and commission statuses to just random ramblings. Either way I hope you all enjoy reading!

Thanks and catch you all later!
Sheba